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Being a grown up is scarey. All the time.
Aug. 6th, 2005 03:05 pmI haven't posted in a long time. I apologize to my readers for that. Sometimes life gets too real and too much and I just need to retreat. I've done that this last month or so.
I realized that it's been a year now since the #^%#&$*% new director of the department fired me from Strong Hospital. A job I really liked, gave more that 120% to on a regular basis and gave me social interaction I really needed.
It's been a year now since I moved back to Buffalo from Rochester.
I had to get my car fixed. Luckily my mother is a wonderful human being and helped me pay for all the repairs. It's an old car and it really needed the work.
Work has been stressful. The uberboss is being more than a butthead and causing my direct boss stress which trickles down through to the people in the department. I'm the only one at work who knows that my co-worker had a fling with one of the attorney's and is now pregnant by him.
People are at pennsic right now. I need to go to Pennsic. There is something about that event, that site, those people that put my mind back in the right mindframe.
But Pennsic... originally I was to go down this Wednesday. I want to go to Sir Haakon's bardic circle. I can't sing but it's a fun relaxed social event and some of the best bards in the Knowne World go to it. But money's tight. and I get paid Thursday. So I'm going to go down Thursday morning instead. IT gives me a day off work to pack the car and really get ready to head down.
I'm going to miss certain people while I'm gone.
Im scared to go as well. With all the stress at work and all I'm afraid to leave for war. My first real job that wasn't retail .... I was let go due to downsizing three days after I returned from war. Then last year... two weeks before Pennsic I get let go. I'm wondering what will happen when I get back from this war.
I need to clean the house before I leave. Im not motivated. I just want to hide.
Yep, being a grown up sucks.
I realized that it's been a year now since the #^%#&$*% new director of the department fired me from Strong Hospital. A job I really liked, gave more that 120% to on a regular basis and gave me social interaction I really needed.
It's been a year now since I moved back to Buffalo from Rochester.
I had to get my car fixed. Luckily my mother is a wonderful human being and helped me pay for all the repairs. It's an old car and it really needed the work.
Work has been stressful. The uberboss is being more than a butthead and causing my direct boss stress which trickles down through to the people in the department. I'm the only one at work who knows that my co-worker had a fling with one of the attorney's and is now pregnant by him.
People are at pennsic right now. I need to go to Pennsic. There is something about that event, that site, those people that put my mind back in the right mindframe.
But Pennsic... originally I was to go down this Wednesday. I want to go to Sir Haakon's bardic circle. I can't sing but it's a fun relaxed social event and some of the best bards in the Knowne World go to it. But money's tight. and I get paid Thursday. So I'm going to go down Thursday morning instead. IT gives me a day off work to pack the car and really get ready to head down.
I'm going to miss certain people while I'm gone.
Im scared to go as well. With all the stress at work and all I'm afraid to leave for war. My first real job that wasn't retail .... I was let go due to downsizing three days after I returned from war. Then last year... two weeks before Pennsic I get let go. I'm wondering what will happen when I get back from this war.
I need to clean the house before I leave. Im not motivated. I just want to hide.
Yep, being a grown up sucks.
