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Nov. 4th, 2005 04:47 pmI"m fighting a cold. Therefore I'm cranky, achey and just plain miserable. I'm both anxious to do something and completely uninspired to do anything.
I also have come to notice the beginning signs of depression sinking in. I want to hide and avoid people. Going out doesn't strike me as anything I want to do, and I'm starting to feel completely and utterly alone in the universe.
On top of that, things I have found fun are changing. The powers that be decided to change something that brought me joy and make it into something in which the fun is gone. At least that is what the rumor is.
I won't bore those who are unfamiliar with what is happening with the details. Those that know what's going on, know why this change has upset me.
I know it's not personal but it's hard to not take it as such. It always seems that just when I find something that I really enjoy, something that makes me look forward to doing it, something that allows me to express myself.... it gets changed, broken or taken away.
Why bother?
I also have come to notice the beginning signs of depression sinking in. I want to hide and avoid people. Going out doesn't strike me as anything I want to do, and I'm starting to feel completely and utterly alone in the universe.
On top of that, things I have found fun are changing. The powers that be decided to change something that brought me joy and make it into something in which the fun is gone. At least that is what the rumor is.
I won't bore those who are unfamiliar with what is happening with the details. Those that know what's going on, know why this change has upset me.
I know it's not personal but it's hard to not take it as such. It always seems that just when I find something that I really enjoy, something that makes me look forward to doing it, something that allows me to express myself.... it gets changed, broken or taken away.
Why bother?
