glad thoughts for the day (days 51-52)

Day 51:
Had a nice even flow of work at work. No "OMG GET IT DONE NOW!!!" and no "come on clock, tick off another second".

Relaxing evening in.

Day 52:

Woke up and had a nice 20 minute snuggle with Grimm. He climbed up out of the covers onto my chest and snuggled in and fell back asleep. It was hard when I eventually had to get up for reals.

Plans for the upcoming season

I was leery to post this. After all, so many have already talked about their plans for the Lenten season. Many of my friends are using it as a starting point to make healthy changes in their lives. And while I am too, I didn't want it to seem that I was mimicking them, even though I've been thinking about this for a while now. But then I figured, it's my journal/blog I can write what I'm thinking in it.

Ever since I last saw my doctor, my weight has been... well a weight on my mind. The numbers on the scale shocked the hell out of me. I can't remember ever being this heavy, even back when I first started WW back before my mother died. I honestly thought I was a good 20 pounds lighter than what the scale in the doctor's office said.

And while she said that my vitamin levels are most likely a strong reason for it, it doesn't mean that I should make some changes.

And while I first thought to wait until after tax season was over to start, the more I thought about it, the more i realized that I was just using tax season as an excuse to fail. I know that this is the time of year when there is always LOTS of food in the office, and I could just say "it's ok, I can eat it now, and just work hard after the season's over." But that just is a crutch thought process.

Then I realized that Lent was coming up. And while not Catholic, it's a good marking point to start. (not to mention it's easier to say "I gave it up for Lent" when some 'helpful' soul offers something to me and not get bullies into accepting it anyway).

I spoke to my coworker Cheryl and she too has made mention of wanting to drop some weight as she has a big high school reunion this summer. So starting tomorrow we are going to take some time from our lunch period and go walk the mall together. My rough estimation through mapmywalk.com indicates that if we do three figure 8 circuits of the second floor we will do roughly a mile. Now we can't go fast because she's had knee replacement surgery, but we both figure no matter how slow, getting up and moving is a good thing. And even if it doens't do much in the way of the weight, it's us moving and getting the blood pumping.

I'm also going to try to cut down to ONE soda a day. Even though almost all of my soda intake is Pepsi one and therefore only one calorie per serving, and no HFCS, it's still soda. If I can get down to one can in the morning and do water and tea the rest of the day that is a step.

I'm also going to make a conscious attempt to stop doing the take out for dinner. It's convenient and lazy and not as healthy as other options are. I am perfectly capable of making up meals for the week on the weekend that are healthier than McD's or Wendy's or even Subway. I need to get back into bringing a lunch rather than doing the "I"ll just hit the food court" mentality.

If I stop munching after 8:30 (unless I don't get home until late and have not had dinner) that too is a step.

I am not going to set a goal weight. That makes me too focused on the results rather than the process.

If I can put these things into place I have hopes that I can get back to feeling better in my own body.

It's a plan.