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Day 60 at the new job and still amazed how I feel towards it.
My boss today admitted that she was raving to some former colleagues about me. I cannot describe the warm fuzzies.
Even today, talking with BossLady I mentioned that the Job from Hell didn't offer 401K at all, let alone matching. She shook her head and said some stuff about it's amazing I lasted as long as I did. I told her it was because the universe was waiting for this job to be available. She chuckled and said "most likely".
Also today, I learned that because I sometimes wear sunglasses at my desk to mitigate headaches... management took it upon themselves to contact building maintenance to see if they could dim the lights over my desk some.
It's kinda sad that I am waiting for the shoe to drop. I fight the weaselbrain every day who says "just wait, the drop is coming. The honeymoon is almost over and then you'll see."
I know, intellectually this is trauma response. The side effects of being in an abusive relationship - and that is what the job from hell was - an abusive relationship. And it's going to take me a long time to recover.
I just have to keep myself from letting the weasels win and causing me to self-sabotage.
My boss today admitted that she was raving to some former colleagues about me. I cannot describe the warm fuzzies.
Even today, talking with BossLady I mentioned that the Job from Hell didn't offer 401K at all, let alone matching. She shook her head and said some stuff about it's amazing I lasted as long as I did. I told her it was because the universe was waiting for this job to be available. She chuckled and said "most likely".
Also today, I learned that because I sometimes wear sunglasses at my desk to mitigate headaches... management took it upon themselves to contact building maintenance to see if they could dim the lights over my desk some.
It's kinda sad that I am waiting for the shoe to drop. I fight the weaselbrain every day who says "just wait, the drop is coming. The honeymoon is almost over and then you'll see."
I know, intellectually this is trauma response. The side effects of being in an abusive relationship - and that is what the job from hell was - an abusive relationship. And it's going to take me a long time to recover.
I just have to keep myself from letting the weasels win and causing me to self-sabotage.
