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May. 7th, 2014 01:16 pmI really need to adjust my attitude today.
I woke up not feeling like I slept at all. This might partially be due to the fact that I fell asleep to Ghost Hunters on the TV. I'm kinda bummed that I missed the ending as they were at the Buffalo Naval Museum.
But I started the day in a foul mood, have had absolutely no motivation whatsoever to do any of the MASSIVE amounts of paperwork sitting on my desk (to the point that I got the graphs for the 9am meeting done and distributed at 8:55 instead of 7:30 like I usually do). I'm looking at the rest of it with a great big "fukit" feeling, especially for every day's worth of data entry I do on the project, I am chasing down details from at least two different people due to not filling out the initial paperwork correctly or haphazardly. I'm just really emotionally tired of having to tell my boss "the reason X report isn't done yet from 2 months ago, is I am still waiting for Y department to send out the details, despite me asking on several occasions."
What caused me to realized the mindset I'm in was that a family member posted to FB some stupid motivational picture that says "What's the definition of unconditional love? Your mother." and my first thought was "Then, unconditional love is dead."
I have two scrolls I need to calligraph for this weekend (one is a backlog that I need to get signed so I can get it to the recipient's widow at War Practice) and the other is a VERY last minute award for this weekend. Luckily I have blanks to use but that has not helped the mood.
I'm probably just 12 shades of hormonal today and all but right now I am not fit for human company. This needs to change before tonight as I have a dinner date with Boogie and it's not fair to her to be in this rotten of a mood since she is in no way shape or form remotely responsible for it.
I woke up not feeling like I slept at all. This might partially be due to the fact that I fell asleep to Ghost Hunters on the TV. I'm kinda bummed that I missed the ending as they were at the Buffalo Naval Museum.
But I started the day in a foul mood, have had absolutely no motivation whatsoever to do any of the MASSIVE amounts of paperwork sitting on my desk (to the point that I got the graphs for the 9am meeting done and distributed at 8:55 instead of 7:30 like I usually do). I'm looking at the rest of it with a great big "fukit" feeling, especially for every day's worth of data entry I do on the project, I am chasing down details from at least two different people due to not filling out the initial paperwork correctly or haphazardly. I'm just really emotionally tired of having to tell my boss "the reason X report isn't done yet from 2 months ago, is I am still waiting for Y department to send out the details, despite me asking on several occasions."
What caused me to realized the mindset I'm in was that a family member posted to FB some stupid motivational picture that says "What's the definition of unconditional love? Your mother." and my first thought was "Then, unconditional love is dead."
I have two scrolls I need to calligraph for this weekend (one is a backlog that I need to get signed so I can get it to the recipient's widow at War Practice) and the other is a VERY last minute award for this weekend. Luckily I have blanks to use but that has not helped the mood.
I'm probably just 12 shades of hormonal today and all but right now I am not fit for human company. This needs to change before tonight as I have a dinner date with Boogie and it's not fair to her to be in this rotten of a mood since she is in no way shape or form remotely responsible for it.
