I'm sitting at my desk at work, doing work stuff and all of a sudden get hit with this almost overwhelming sadness. Not crying level, just the almost overwhelming need to pull away, curl up in a blanket with my dog and be sad.
Maybe it's the weather - it is currently freezing rain with a chance of Thunder Ice. Maybe it's that I made the decision to not go to the barony meeting tonight in order to get a scroll for the weekend done (not to mention weather) and yesterday I determined that I really do not want to drive all the way to Syracuse to attend an event I don't like, even though it means missing an opportunity to see friends.
I know I'm craving touch again. Luckily I have a nail appointment on Friday, though that 20 minutes of hand holding isn't much, it's something.
I know I'm just talking to the void, but I needed to get out the emotion I'm feeling and validate it.