One day at a time

[baronessekat]

Yesterday it hit. The February depression. And it hit like a ton of bricks.

Doing anything productive yesterday was a task in supreme will power - and this included doing things like making myself something to eat. At one point it was even fighting a panic attack to open the front door and get the mail out of the mail box.

I didn't actually fall asleep last night until about 4:45am.

This morning I'm doing a little better. I was able to open the door and get the paper off the front porch. I noticed the nice weather and had a fleeting thought of maybe I should take Grimm for a walk, but that too was instantly followed by a total paralizing fear.

I'm working on trying to focus on the good things.

I celebrated my one year anniversary at work. They even gave me a nice desk clock/calculator combo with the company's logo on it to mark the occasion. I need to focus on the fact that it may not be my ideal job, but I have one and that as long as the company remains in business I have one.

I have food in the kitchen - may not be what I want to eat at the moment but I won't starve this week.

I have a puppy and kitties that love me and tolerate snuggles from a clingy wreck of a mommy.

I have friends and family who love me.

Yes the next several weeks are going to be tough, but I am strong enough to get through it.

Comments

[stitchwhich.livejournal.com]

You will get through it. And every week winter gets a little older and loses its grip a bit more. Well, until that 'last gasp' snowstorm anyway! I kinda like spending the end of Feb. daydreaming about how I'm going to set up my Pennsic camp - tent and kitchen. What I'd like to take, what I'd like to replace, how much I want to use to 'decorate' vs how much transportation room it needs. That sort of stuff. That is what helps me get to sleep at night. If I try doing that during the camping season it turns into anxiety-making planning-for-real but doing it during the cold season makes it fun. And daydreaming a camp that I'll never do (like build one of the house-on-a-trailer things) is pleasant.

It is sunny and warm down here. I know it won't last but I'm loving it - and grateful that it is that way so Arn can take the truck-with-the-broken-window in to the repair shop before rain or snow threaten.

[damedini.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Yes, you will get through it, like you always do. And at the end it will be spring and warm and lovely.
Meanwhile make sure to get yourself some nice fruit and be a little extra nice to yourself. Get your nails done in a bright, cheery color (orange?).

[sabriel-0405.livejournal.com]

Congratulations on the 1 year anniversary. That's a big deal.

As for the rest, you are most definitely strong enough to get through it. Focus on the things you can do and not on the things you can't.

I realize that you may not have the money for this, but you may want to look into one of those SAD lights. Also, if you are normally taking anti-anxiety meds or depression meds, they may need to be adjusted at this time of year. February is miserable for nearly everyone.

I'm thinking happy thoughts about you!

[blairya.livejournal.com]

I know it sounds stupid, but try a few minutes at a tanning salon - it actually does help.

[sillyviking.livejournal.com]

Seasonsal Affective Disorder (SAD) is very real. Also, make sure your vitamins have a dosage of Vitamin A.

Give a shout when ya can't stand it.

[utsi.livejournal.com]

three day weekend coming up for me... if a visit would perk you up, i'd be happy to drive down sat. after checking in on a friends cat, and come back sometime sunday.

[baronessekat.livejournal.com]

thanks for the offer sweets. I appreciate it. Weekends this month stink for me as they are all booked solid.

I really do appreciate the offer though. Sometime though we will get together.

[utsi.livejournal.com]

no worries- it'll happen when the timing is right. and i understand the feb blahs. mine have been manifesting in long naps of avoidance. *hugs* to you and the four foots

[meirwen.livejournal.com]

Don't forget to do the usual--sit under the full spectrum bulbs, maybe put those lights on a timer, and maybe one in the bedroom, that matches the light begin and end for your "happiest" time of year.

And, well, February sucks. Even more this year than others.
But at least it's the shortest. At least some days that helps me bear it.

One victory at a time, sweetheart. Celebrate every little one (like finding the will to write this, like getting out of bed this morning)--it will help.

[retiredmaj.livejournal.com]

Get into armor. I *always* fell more chipper after pounding the snot out of something. And my bruises give me something else to think about....:) Hang tight....Spring is around the corner.

Look at this way, the sun *just* came up in Thule. Think how much better you have it....:)