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baronessekatManaged to get almost everything I wanted to get done last night done. Really hoping the Duchess runs late getting in tonight so I can get a few last things done. If not... she's seen my home in worse shape with me being in a better frame of mind.
I MASSIVELY overslept for me today. Alarm went off at 4. I don't remember it going off but I apparently shut it off while still asleep and rolled back over. Woke at 6:15 when bladder kicked in. Saw the time, had panic attack about being over an hour late (by the schedule I set for myself to make up time for being off Monday), and had a rather large asthma attack as I raced to the potty. Got into work at 6:45 (could have been in at 6:30 but coffee this morning was not optional given the asthma - even the barista commented that I was in late this morning). At least, if the Duchess' plans stay true, I can sleep in on Sunday.
Mind set is still really bad. If tomorrow was about anyone other than Minionous Maximus and Spouse I would totally be skipping out on an event that is less than 5 miles from my house. It's going to be a fight to not hide in the Baronial room all day away from people.
I know part of the reason for the mindset is unrealistic personal expectations. I did not get the Holiday presents for Duchess, Duchezz or Minionous Minimus done to give them this weekend so will either have to mail or wait until probably February to give them. At least I got The Canadian's done (though now I'm hoping I did not give her one last year as I can't remember) to give to her so that I don't have to try to figure out how to deal with Canada Post or ask her to find some time in her crazy schedule for me. And even then, I wish I could have done more than what I have for her but time and resources are just ... well.. not.
So next week I will finish the gifts for the Duchesses and Boo and Boogie so I can get them all out in the mail by next weekend. Then I can try to get Not the Duchess, Minionous Lepus done as well as make up all the cookie doughs so I can go the following week over to the Kelda's for baking day. Crap... need to get her present done too and figure out a birthday gift.
*sigh* *sob* *resignation*
EDIT: oh hey look... I started spotting. FUCKING HORMONES
I MASSIVELY overslept for me today. Alarm went off at 4. I don't remember it going off but I apparently shut it off while still asleep and rolled back over. Woke at 6:15 when bladder kicked in. Saw the time, had panic attack about being over an hour late (by the schedule I set for myself to make up time for being off Monday), and had a rather large asthma attack as I raced to the potty. Got into work at 6:45 (could have been in at 6:30 but coffee this morning was not optional given the asthma - even the barista commented that I was in late this morning). At least, if the Duchess' plans stay true, I can sleep in on Sunday.
Mind set is still really bad. If tomorrow was about anyone other than Minionous Maximus and Spouse I would totally be skipping out on an event that is less than 5 miles from my house. It's going to be a fight to not hide in the Baronial room all day away from people.
I know part of the reason for the mindset is unrealistic personal expectations. I did not get the Holiday presents for Duchess, Duchezz or Minionous Minimus done to give them this weekend so will either have to mail or wait until probably February to give them. At least I got The Canadian's done (though now I'm hoping I did not give her one last year as I can't remember) to give to her so that I don't have to try to figure out how to deal with Canada Post or ask her to find some time in her crazy schedule for me. And even then, I wish I could have done more than what I have for her but time and resources are just ... well.. not.
So next week I will finish the gifts for the Duchesses and Boo and Boogie so I can get them all out in the mail by next weekend. Then I can try to get Not the Duchess, Minionous Lepus done as well as make up all the cookie doughs so I can go the following week over to the Kelda's for baking day. Crap... need to get her present done too and figure out a birthday gift.
*sigh* *sob* *resignation*
EDIT: oh hey look... I started spotting. FUCKING HORMONES
