thoughts as of late
Mar. 20th, 2019 09:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
baronessekatI've been slowly working on losing weight. Nothing drastic. Just more or less being aware of what I'm eating, when I'm eating and why I'm eating - "Am I actually hungry or am I bored?" "Am I eating because it's 'dinner time' or because I am hungry?" "Should I really want that burger or would a salad be just as satisfying?" kind of things.
I walk when I can, but I'm not as good about doing my 30 minute walks as I should.
I know I've lost weight. about 15 lbs since Thanksgiving. I have noticed non-scale victories - my SCA plaque belt needing to have a plaque removed because it fell off my body it was too big, noticing I could pull my pants off without unfastening them. In fact yesterday I was at walmart and on a whim tried on a 14W pair of pants and HOLY SHIT - they fit. I have been wearing 18W for 2 years and last week talked myself into trying an old pair of 16W on and noticed they were a bit loose. Regular 14 is too small still but a 14W is just about right (though just a bit snug in the leg).
I don't know if my noticing is because I'm trying to tackle my depression or not. But whoa.
But one weird thing lately is that I feel "taller". I find myself ducking my head down to get into the car when I never did that before. this was even before I rented a tiny car for the weekend to go up to Canada (was not going to take the car that needs a new break light and exhaust work across an international border). I even found myself adjusting my chair and keyboard tray height at work. It's just weird. I don't know if that's a dissociative thing (which I do do) or just a "more aware of myself and my surroundings because I"m not living in my head" thing.
Anyway, just random things floating around in my head about me lately that I wanted to document.
I walk when I can, but I'm not as good about doing my 30 minute walks as I should.
I know I've lost weight. about 15 lbs since Thanksgiving. I have noticed non-scale victories - my SCA plaque belt needing to have a plaque removed because it fell off my body it was too big, noticing I could pull my pants off without unfastening them. In fact yesterday I was at walmart and on a whim tried on a 14W pair of pants and HOLY SHIT - they fit. I have been wearing 18W for 2 years and last week talked myself into trying an old pair of 16W on and noticed they were a bit loose. Regular 14 is too small still but a 14W is just about right (though just a bit snug in the leg).
I don't know if my noticing is because I'm trying to tackle my depression or not. But whoa.
But one weird thing lately is that I feel "taller". I find myself ducking my head down to get into the car when I never did that before. this was even before I rented a tiny car for the weekend to go up to Canada (was not going to take the car that needs a new break light and exhaust work across an international border). I even found myself adjusting my chair and keyboard tray height at work. It's just weird. I don't know if that's a dissociative thing (which I do do) or just a "more aware of myself and my surroundings because I"m not living in my head" thing.
Anyway, just random things floating around in my head about me lately that I wanted to document.
