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[baronessekat]

Today has been the day of Why do I even f'ing bother because obviously I can't do anything right.

If I ask for an opinion I get "can't you think for yourself" (not in those exact words but responce attitude). If I make a decision on my own I get "what were you thinking? Why didn't you ask someone elses opinion?"

At one point today (before 9am) I found myself standing up and reaching for my bag and keys. I had to literally talk myself into sitting back down and returning to work.

I'm just exhausted. Pure and simple. Emotionally, spiritually, even physically.

I'm not sleeping well. I don't know why. But what sleep I have been getting has not been restful.

I want a vacation. Even a little one. A 4 day weekend away somewhere. but I don't have the money to do it. I'd kill for the ability to find a nice cozy B&B in Charleston to hide away for a couple days and just get lost from the world.

Come to learn I'm also completely incompetant when I comes to fundraising. I have not been able to raise even a penny for the March of Dimes walk I signed up to do on Sunday. When a good chunk of the office is signed up to do it as well, it's hard to hit the co-workers up for a donation. I guess I'll just take the scores of bottles back and return them and use that money as my "donation". I just need to have the money in by Friday.

Went to Borders today after work and got a "For Dummies" book to help with the project Boo and I have been talking about now for a while.

Also picked up two Amanda Quick books (or as dicea calls them "the crack".

also got two workout DVD's. See if I can get motivated to do them. Of course I need to either find the living room or the bedroom so I can do them. If it's nice out Saturday most likely the Living room will be the next room cleaned.

Tomorrow is weigh in. I'm very apathetic. Yesterday totally blew my points by a big crunchy way.

I'm seriously thinking of trying a variation of the plan starting tomorrow. People on the ww lj say it can give you good results. I might try it. 7.4 pounds to make ww goal. 13.4 for personal goal. WAnt to make WW goal by the first weekend of May. We shall see.

I think I'm going to go take a bath (if I can get enough hot water for the tub) and then curl up with a book (current one for night time reading is "Ravished" by Amanda Quick") and hide from the world until the light of day tomorrow.

To quote Scarlett "tomorrow is another day".

Comments

[unique_name_123]

If you email me I might be able to help with the march of dimes part.

[baronessekat.livejournal.com]

this should take you to the site (www.walkamerica.org/baronessekat) but if the link doesn't work the url is www.walkamerica.org/baronessekat

thank you

[dicea.livejournal.com]

Hang in there, honey. We'll get through all this somehow.

I'm so proud of you. Every day.

[pafirecub.livejournal.com]

big hugs and fuzzy thoughts sent your way

[rhysbright.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry things are rough, but they'll get better by and by.
And just to comment on your statement "I have not been able to raise even a penny for the March of Dimes walk I signed up to do on Sunday", you better check your Walkamerica page because I made my donation last week.

[damedini.livejournal.com]

I'm not a B&B or anything, but if you were to drive 2 hours I have a guest room wiht double bed and the possibility of 2 cats. Toronto is fun and fun can be had fairly cheaply. Worst case, tehre's always BBQ and DVDs.

[baronessekat.livejournal.com]

I will definately keep it in mind. Seriously