Halloween and the saying goodbye
Oct. 31st, 2004 06:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
baronessekatToday is All Hallow's Eve. Halloween. The time when the spirit world is closer to the corporeal than any other day of the year.
IT's also the time when I sit and reflect on those who have gone on. This year I have not had to say goodbye to any loved ones. Yet. No, that will be coming soon enough.
My beloved Nicodemus is dying. For those who have never heard of him or had the pleasure of meeting him, he is my 6 year old best friend. I got him six years ago around this time of year. Rescued from the local SPCA.
He's solid black, beautiful amber colored eyes and the biggest heart the divine ever gave to a creature, especially a cat. He's been my love, my companion, and at times my reason for going for the last six years.
But a little over a month ago I was told that the growth on his lower jaw was the dreaded C word. My dearest Nicky has cancer. But he did not seem to be effected by it. The steroid the vet had prescribed him helped to keep the swelling down and he was just as vibrant and loving as always.
But this past week he's slowly been getting worse. He's wheezing now. And it's becoming clear that the cancer is starting to effect his breathing. He's starting to pull away from the other cats and now he's wanting to be left alone more.
He has an appointment on Saturday for a check up with the Vet. And as much as it tears me apart to say it, I'm going to have to look Doctor Dave in the eyes and say that it's time for Nicky to be free. It's going to kill me to say goodbye to him. HE's my baby. But I can't in good conscious let him continue suffering. I love him too much.
My dear Alexandra will miss her big brother. And the baby, Tzar Attila will no longer have a pouncing playmate. But Nicodemus deserves the rest.
Maybe it's fitting that his passing is during the fall, when Mother Nature herself takes a long deserved rest.
All I know is that I am going to miss him terribly and the house will forever seem empty without him there.
IT's also the time when I sit and reflect on those who have gone on. This year I have not had to say goodbye to any loved ones. Yet. No, that will be coming soon enough.
My beloved Nicodemus is dying. For those who have never heard of him or had the pleasure of meeting him, he is my 6 year old best friend. I got him six years ago around this time of year. Rescued from the local SPCA.
He's solid black, beautiful amber colored eyes and the biggest heart the divine ever gave to a creature, especially a cat. He's been my love, my companion, and at times my reason for going for the last six years.
But a little over a month ago I was told that the growth on his lower jaw was the dreaded C word. My dearest Nicky has cancer. But he did not seem to be effected by it. The steroid the vet had prescribed him helped to keep the swelling down and he was just as vibrant and loving as always.
But this past week he's slowly been getting worse. He's wheezing now. And it's becoming clear that the cancer is starting to effect his breathing. He's starting to pull away from the other cats and now he's wanting to be left alone more.
He has an appointment on Saturday for a check up with the Vet. And as much as it tears me apart to say it, I'm going to have to look Doctor Dave in the eyes and say that it's time for Nicky to be free. It's going to kill me to say goodbye to him. HE's my baby. But I can't in good conscious let him continue suffering. I love him too much.
My dear Alexandra will miss her big brother. And the baby, Tzar Attila will no longer have a pouncing playmate. But Nicodemus deserves the rest.
Maybe it's fitting that his passing is during the fall, when Mother Nature herself takes a long deserved rest.
All I know is that I am going to miss him terribly and the house will forever seem empty without him there.
